Living a life?

             Everyone has their own dreams to achieve, but not all of them succeed. Imagine themselves as superhero to save the people they love or saving the world from crime. The world is so big and I am just a human being, living on Earth like a particle of dust. Living in a world that is full of lies everywhere. Not everyone had a perfect life to live, even though they thought it was the perfect moment for them. Nobody knows it will go wrong someday. 'Life is never flat' the sentence I always hear when people try to comfort me. It has a lot of ups and downs that noone could ever imagine, it may be the best or the worst. 

              Imagine life as a game in which you are juggling 5 balls in the air. You name them: work, family, health, friends and spirit, and you are keeping all of them in the air. You will soon understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back, but the other 4 balls (family, health, friends and spirits) are made of glass. If you drop one of these, they will be irrevocably scuffed, marked, nicked, damaged or even shattered. They will never be the same. You must understand that and strive for balance in your life. Don't undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others. It is because we are different that each of us is special. Don't set your goals by what other people deem important. Only you know what is best for you. Don't take for granted the things closest to your heart. Cling to them as you would, for your life, without them life is meaningless. Don't let life slip through your fingers by living in the past or future. By living your life one day at a time, you live all the days of your life. 

              However mean your life is, just go with the flow. Do not call it as hardship, cause it is not as bad as you are. It looks poorest when you are richest. The person who always seek for your mistakes will find their own faults in paradise. Just like splashes of water created, it will affect your surroundings, cause it may comes from anger or jealousy, and we are responsible for that. We cannot create peace if we are riddled with inner conflict, hatred, doubt or anger. Love your life..... Perhaps you may have some pleasant, thrilling and glorious time in your life. Always remember, there's only one person in this world like you, and I like the way you are. Do not trouble yourself too much, cause what matter is you change yourself into a better person. Radiate the feelings and thoughts that we hold inside, find your inner peace. Whatever inside you will spill out into the world someday, creating the beauty with all other circles of life.

Living in the World Peacefully

I spend too many hours indoors. I wonder if so often when we misplace our peace, if the answer is simply to spend more time outside. I say I wonder, but I already know what kind of person I become when I spend extended minutes under the sky. There I see the rest of the beauty, and it’s not that I forget the chaos of the day. It’s not that the challenges disappear or the discouragement dissipates.

It is hard to comprehend how much hurt is happening in this world and how many hearts are broken. In these trying times, we all suffer, but we do have options to accomplish healing without resorting to hate or revenge. 

We can let what we’ve seen happen in this world especially this week make us feel angry, hateful, or resentful. Or, we can turn these tragedies into opportunities to create more peace and healing in this world.

If we let our hurt and pain turn into hate, revenge, and resentment, we don’t put ourselves in a position of strength to help anyone.  We need to overcome our own anguish so that we can be a light in a time of darkness.

It isn’t easy, and people are at a loss for a solution, but we can all move together towards a world of unity and peace. 

The media is so focused on hate and negativity which can create so much anger. I just see lives that were never given the chance they deserved to prove their innocence. I see people who are willing to protect and serve this nation despite the doubt and cynicism that the uniform is scarred by. I want to see a world that is more peaceful and loving. 

So I took the time to reflect and block out anything that made me feel more anger and hate. Instead, I spent more time in prayer and solitude with the hope that I could in some way find the words to express how I felt so I could reach other people who are hurting and searching for faith.

How does it feel to sit on the roof upside-down and look to the ground? How does it feel if we can touch the sky? Peacefully living in this world is hard, full of injustice, pain and sorrow. Who is standing by my side? Who is supporting me when I am down? Where is everyone when I need them? Everything just feel so empty, as if we are living like a robot, listening to other people order.

Why can't we be free to share peace and love? Why people have to settle everything with fights, law, or war? We should be scared and repent on what we are doing, because we can always keep on return to this world if we do more sins.

Global Army Song 2019

See You There
By: Gracie Ranan
https://bts-radio-uk.blogspot.com/2019/07/see-you-there-gracie-ranan-interview.html

[LYRICS}

They said I can't climb the highest mountain
They said I don't have a dream
They said I can't change the world
But then you came to me
You made me begin

I'll get rid off the lies in my head
And I'm taking the very first step
And I'll walk through the dark
And take a deep breath
Cause I know I'll see you there
I will see you there

You told me that I'm never alone
And to have a dream of my own
You're the voice that's calling me from the dark
Together we will see the sun
Another chapter has just begun

I'll get rid off the lies in my head
And I'm taking the very first step
And I'll walk through the dark
And take a deep breath
Cause I know I'll see you there
I'm not going anywhere
I swear

I'll hold on
When the road gets tough
And we will be enough
And if you count to 3
You're gonna be okay
We're gonna be okay

I know you are no real estate [Agent]
But it feels like you are my homies [Mansion]
Usually no one ever hits up my phone
But I can call on our galaxy [Samsung]

Used to sing by myself
Cause no one else was on my wavelength
But since you let me in that door
I'm no longer a whalien

Every time I fall
You my parachute
You my magic shop
You my chicken soup

Scared of being me
Now I speak my truth
We all shooting stars
Now we bulletproof
And it all thanks to you

And I hope this life do treat you well
May we smile even though it's unfair
And we'll walk through that door
Your hand in my hand
Cause I know I'll see you there
You were meant to speak yourself

And I'll walk through that door
But I won't be afraid
Cause I know I'll see you there

I'll speak, I'll smile
I'll dream, I'll shine
It's all because of you

I'll speak, I'll smile
I'll dream, I'll fly
I live so I love

I'll speak, I'll smile
I'll dream, I'll shine
I'll speak, I'll smile
I'll dream, I'll fly
I live so I love

Memories of You and Me

Your smile, my hug
Are ingredients to happiness
Wonderful just like how coffee matches its companion
You lean on my shoulder
The warmest heart
You said that I’m your safe harbour

Your mischief, my teasing
Slightly upturned corners of our mouths
Your mischievous smile makes my heartbeat race
You asked me who I will rank first in my heart
Without hesitation, I point to you

Love is a relay, the passing on of happiness
Sweetness anytime and anywhere
One-to-one, just me and you, you and me
While chasing you, not forgetting to cheer you on
The reward at the end is a happy ending

The magnetic attraction of love lets two hearts be stuck together
Even if a thousand metres apart, love does not leave
Meticulously giving a romantic portrayal of this romance movie
Singing the theme song of happiness hand in hand

Love is a relay, the chemistry between us
I’ll carefully put it at the bottom of my heart
I will treasure loving you
For you, I chase away dark clouds
For you, I shield you from wind and rain
You must believe that I’m your only one

Love is a relay, the passing on of happiness
Maintaining the sweetness it should have
One-to-one, just me and you, you and me
While chasing you, not forgetting to cheer you on
It’s a happy ending, let me run to you

The happy ending is me and you

Global Army Song 2018

We'll be Fine

By：Gracie Ranan

[LYRICS]

It's been a long day

And you've done your part

Exhale all the problems

It’s okay to fall short sometimes

While the pain chose to stay, have hope

Better days are coming soon, you know

They know

When we say ‘we believe’

I know we’re stronger when together

When we say ‘we will fight’

I know this bond will last forever

And no such arguments or fights will ever tear us apart

We made a promise, we made a vow to reach the sky

And if I have you and them by my side

I’ll be fine

I'll be fine

When people doubt us, yet we’ve tried our best

The sacrifice we make, good days will come

I hope it’s not too late

Believe in me who’ll always trust in you

I know the world is harsh, bit I do love you

And they do too

When we say ‘we believe

I know we’re stronger when together

When we say ‘we will fight’

I know this bond will last forever

And no such arguments or fights will ever tear us apart

We made a promise, we made a vow to reach the sky

And if I have you and them by my side

I’ll be fine

I’ll be fine

There’ll be more desert to face

But the sea that chose to stay is you

When we say ‘we believe’

We’re happy as long as we stay together

When we say ‘we will fight’

We see the highs and lows together

And so such hate or harm and bullets will take us down

We made this promise, we made this vow to stand by you

I’ll be forever loving you

And so such hate or harm and bullets will take us down

We made this promise, we made this vow to stand by you

With every heartbeat and breath with you

We’ll be fine…

Have you ever wonder? Pt.2

Part 1: https://chrischriswija.blogspot.com/2018/04/have-you-ever-wonder.html
                    Do you really know the truth about yourself?

Real story happen:
                    Mimi came from a very poor family and was unwanted by all her family and throw her outside with some old clothes to cover her. Everybody in her family said that she is an "illegitimate child", her mother didn't know what to do and met a lawyer who was willing to take care of her. At that time, the lawyer had 2 sons and couldn't take care of Mimi well, so Mr lawyer called his friends to gather and discuss who would like to take care of her. Most people wanted to take care of her, but Mr lawyer decided to give Mimi to his best friend's wife, a successful businesswoman (let's just call her Mrs R). Mrs R accepted Mimi and persuade her family to accept Mimi's existence, but Mrs R's eldest brother denied and left.

                     All years had past, Mimi met Mr lawyer on her 4th birthday. She enjoyed her childhood with her unrelated cousins and secrets hidden by her family. She was a sweet innocent girl, knew nothing that matters, but bad lucks did happen to her all the times. Most of it was because of her uncle's accusation and keep bad-mouthing her, also if she did a little mistake, she got hit by her mother, Mrs R. Mrs R is a very temperamental and hot-headed woman, she wants to be the best of the best from all people around her, so that noone would dare to look down upon her. On the other hand, Mimi loves the people around her no matter what race or religion they are, she respect everybody. She doesn't care if they had hurt her feelings, but she always put a happy smile for them. All her gadgets, hobbies and friendships are controlled by Mrs R, she feels a lot of pressure around her mother, that is why she always fall sick without anybody notice her. She never care about her health, all she think is to make everyone smile, but her mother and uncle always call her "the Unlucky Child". She was forced to quit her university studies and worked for her. She was doing all the work, house chores and teaching her younger brother alone (no maids, no tutor, no staff). Everytime, she had to stay up late and wake up early. Well, I think people do face unlucky situation, but not to blame the child for bringing them the unwanted situation. Mimi suffered from squatting too long, too much pressure and work, also she never eat her meal on time. When she had a fever, she suffered a lot, but never want to let anybody know her weak side. She followed what Mrs.R want and never knew something would had happen. She was forced to be engaged to someone who she didn't recognized, just to build a business relationship. She felt the atmosphere was so heavy and couldn't help to face the truth. At those times, her headache always come to her which made her eyes blurry and dizzy. She couldn't help facing what she had to do by forcing herself.

                   On the 4th day of CNY, She ran away from home to her and went to Mr Lawyer. She was told all the truth which they had been keeping a secret from her. Her real name, everything about her. Mrs.R was making all up as fake identity, so noone can take her away. At the same time, her ear was infected badly and had to operate, which cause her to hurt a little from her hearing. She wouldn't dare to continue composing her songs, since she lose her motivation to do it. She decided to keep her mind busy and think how to break off her forced engagement. She never thought she could live, when she had her extreme diet with Mrs.R, which almost lead her to death (at that time, she fainted for not eating for 2 days and wasn't breathing). She always had a thought which feels like Mrs.R cursed her "If I had a stroke, you will be blame for my death by everyone and they will hate you for life". She couldn't stop thinking, even she worked so hard to keep her mind busy. She is blamed for spreading the fake rumors, while she just kept quiet about everything.

                  She has a stable job and teach tutor now, although people think that she is happy, but she still can't stop thinking about Mrs.R words, which always hurt and scare her. She also blame herself for not being with her friend, who had past away. She may look happy and tough, but she really need someone who she can trust the most. Let's just pray that everything will go well and nothing bad comes.

Have You Ever Wonder?

Have you ever wonder, to be in a position which a person just standing behind the scene and sacrifice a lot of things? Well, I know one of them. Would you like to know her story?

         There is a girl, her name is Mimi. She is a caring and hardworking but timid, more to be an introvert type of person. She always try her best for her parents, but they never listen to what she wished for. Ever since she was a kid, she kept silent and try to be brave like her schoolmates, but nothing works on her. All she got was being bullied and left alone.
          When she was in Junior High School, she always wish to hang out with her friends, but her parents wouldn't allow her. Said that hanging out is just a waste of time, better study at home and practice your piano lessons. She also got hit by her parents because of a small mistake which she didn't do it on purpose. Poor her... She never had a chance to have more friends and experiences. Since then, she always hate her parents, but she couldn't say it. Although her friends had convinced her to tell the police, she couldn't do it. Until she entered Senior High School, she was told by some stranger that she wasn't their biological daughter, everything was clear to her understanding.
          She ignored her parents and her younger brother, but she couldn't help it when they were on trouble. She cried every night and tried to reflect on everything she had been through for years. She always receive an abusement from her parents, slowly she also realized that she never look like anyone. All she could think of was 'Who's child am I?' On her second year of Senior High School, her mother asked her for a strict diet. She couldn't eat and drink any of her favorites, or else she would get beaten. She did her strict diet on Christmas holiday, until she really forgot to drink her vitamins. She felt that the world had gone dark and wished that she would never come back.
          When she woke up, it was around 2 PM, the maids were crying and other workers looked pale from shocking. She was told that, she lose her conciousness for quite a few hours, which everyone thinks that she was dead. Her mother seems fine, no worries written on her face, act as a high mighty person as always. Blaming her for every single detailed mistake, nothing more or less, quite sadist too. 2 years had past, she started to join the University, but under her parent's condition 'No Organization'. She felt down and had to sacrifice herself again for them, but she still put up the spirit because there were new people trying to be her friends. Until she entered second year of university, she had to quit, leaving all her studies and friends behind. That hurts her a lot, because she only gain courage from looking at her friends high spirit, and yet it ended badly. She had to help out at the Seminar for the whole week, on the last day, she fainted and had a high fever. Everyone seems worried about her condition, although she was always with her neighbour together.
           These days, I haven't been in contact with her again after hearing her story. Seems that her body has weakened. I can only hope her for the best she can do. Nobody ever knew her painful and sacrifices, only receiving her support and goes on. She never say a word or complain about anything she has been done. Isn't it great to have this kind of friend? Remember, nobody is perfect, flaw always happen to everyone. Don't underestimate other people's mind, because they have work so hard to help and understand other people's feelings.

Part 2:
http://chrischriswija.blogspot.com/2018/05/have-you-ever-wonder.html