Mimi's New Life

A year have past, living a normal life is quite different than being forced of doing spmething that we hate.

Since the day I ran away from home, I have been working hard start a life from zero. I can be counted as an independent girl (or maybe woman). For this whole year, for the first time I feel such freedom, doing something I always dream to do. I have lost a lot of chance, but lucky that I still get in contact with my friends and start fangirling to Korean oppas "again". To be honest, listen to their songs make me happy, on the other hand, I lose my chance for my music career after the surgery on my right ear which was badly infected. My other option for career is becoming a translator, doing pretty good and have a great salary. Everyone in the company are great, because most of them are at China, I am with my own manager in Indonesia to focus and open new branch here.

My life totally change 180 degree after I separated from my family, but I am still worried about little things. No matter how disappointed I am towards them, they are still my family. I always know both my mother and my only little brother are both hot-headed, which worries me if they suddenly fight about something that nobody understands, the victim here will be my mother because she never know how to handle his emotion. Since my brother was 4 years old, he can tell a lie and hurt his classmates, mother never knew he can tell lie. I am used to get hit by my mother and brother, which hurts a lot...... He does have stronger strength than mom, well younger people are always stronger than the elders. On the other way round, elders are wiser than young people. For me, it just basically starting from zero again, luckily has experience my worst by carrying what labourers do. At a young age, how mom treat me was different from how she treat my younger brother. I can't just basically say they are my 'family', because I am originally being left alone outside somewhere, but I still feel greatful they let me stay for this 21 years with them and getting knowledge.

My current job is stable as a personal assisstant and chinese translator, but people do believe there is always up and down. Getting cursed by your manager always happen, but outside office we get along like sisters with different worlds because feeling a bot like her own tour guide and companion. Sometimes her words do hurt my feeling, always forcing to keep asking what happen between the cooperation with customs problem, we do answer her many times but she wouldn't believe.

On the other hand, as a kpop fangirl for after 10 years, it feels so different. For the first time I went to Seventeen's 《Ode To You》Concert, everthing was like 'Damn'...... Can't move on until now. It was totally breath-taking and their auras are superb. I, as a beginner for the concert thing, am lucky to meet my primary school friend and enjoy it together with some other new friends randomly from line square. Listen to their song, honestly I don't understand what it means, but after reading the translation lyrics, it warms my heart. I may not be able to play piano anymore, but my hearing are still good to hear them mixing their final music and becoming MVs. How they mix the audio and do the recordings for hours or days, I know how that felt. I've learnt a little about music production, but never touch it. I do feel regret for not being able to go back during those days, making people happy through music, writing my own songs, doing my own music arrangements and other stuffs. It feels that music is part of my life since I was 3 and after 18 years its gone, my heart feels empty. At least, nothing probably go wrong as a fangirl right? I still can listen to other people's songs.

Music that warms my heart:
1. Answer: Love Yourself - BTS
2. Mikrokosmos - BTS
3. Trivia: Seesaw - BTS (Suga)
4. Song Request - Lee Sora Ft. Suga
5. Breathe - Lee Hi
6. Simple - Seventeen (Woozi)
7. Smile Flower - Seventeen
8. Love Letter - Seventeen
9. Healing - Seventeen
10. Second Life - Seventeen
11. Lie Again - Seventeen
12. Mom - BTS (Jin) cover
13. How can I Love the Heartbreak - Akdong Musician
14. Miracle - Seventeen (Woozi)
15. Sweetest Thing - Seventeen
16. Winter Bear - BTS (V)
17. Kind of Love - Seventeen (Seungkwan)
18. Sweet Night - BTS (V)
19. Scenery - BTS (V)
20. Zero O'Clock - BTS (Vocal Line)
21. Moon - BTS (Jin)
22. Shadow - BTS (Suga)
23. Something Different - Why Don't We
24. I will - Chelsy [Ao Haru Ride]
25. (It's Gonna Be) Okay - The Piano Guys


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