Mimi's New Life

A year have past, living a normal life is quite different than being forced of doing spmething that we hate.

Since the day I ran away from home, I have been working hard start a life from zero. I can be counted as an independent girl (or maybe woman). For this whole year, for the first time I feel such freedom, doing something I always dream to do. I have lost a lot of chance, but lucky that I still get in contact with my friends and start fangirling to Korean oppas "again". To be honest, listen to their songs make me happy, on the other hand, I lose my chance for my music career after the surgery on my right ear which was badly infected. My other option for career is becoming a translator, doing pretty good and have a great salary. Everyone in the company are great, because most of them are at China, I am with my own manager in Indonesia to focus and open new branch here.

My life totally change 180 degree after I separated from my family, but I am still worried about little things. No matter how disappointed I am towards them, they are still my family. I always know both my mother and my only little brother are both hot-headed, which worries me if they suddenly fight about something that nobody understands, the victim here will be my mother because she never know how to handle his emotion. Since my brother was 4 years old, he can tell a lie and hurt his classmates, mother never knew he can tell lie. I am used to get hit by my mother and brother, which hurts a lot...... He does have stronger strength than mom, well younger people are always stronger than the elders. On the other way round, elders are wiser than young people. For me, it just basically starting from zero again, luckily has experience my worst by carrying what labourers do. At a young age, how mom treat me was different from how she treat my younger brother. I can't just basically say they are my 'family', because I am originally being left alone outside somewhere, but I still feel greatful they let me stay for this 21 years with them and getting knowledge.

My current job is stable as a personal assisstant and chinese translator, but people do believe there is always up and down. Getting cursed by your manager always happen, but outside office we get along like sisters with different worlds because feeling a bot like her own tour guide and companion. Sometimes her words do hurt my feeling, always forcing to keep asking what happen between the cooperation with customs problem, we do answer her many times but she wouldn't believe.

On the other hand, as a kpop fangirl for after 10 years, it feels so different. For the first time I went to Seventeen's 《Ode To You》Concert, everthing was like 'Damn'...... Can't move on until now. It was totally breath-taking and their auras are superb. I, as a beginner for the concert thing, am lucky to meet my primary school friend and enjoy it together with some other new friends randomly from line square. Listen to their song, honestly I don't understand what it means, but after reading the translation lyrics, it warms my heart. I may not be able to play piano anymore, but my hearing are still good to hear them mixing their final music and becoming MVs. How they mix the audio and do the recordings for hours or days, I know how that felt. I've learnt a little about music production, but never touch it. I do feel regret for not being able to go back during those days, making people happy through music, writing my own songs, doing my own music arrangements and other stuffs. It feels that music is part of my life since I was 3 and after 18 years its gone, my heart feels empty. At least, nothing probably go wrong as a fangirl right? I still can listen to other people's songs.

Music that warms my heart:
1. Answer: Love Yourself - BTS
2. Mikrokosmos - BTS
3. Trivia: Seesaw - BTS (Suga)
4. Song Request - Lee Sora Ft. Suga
5. Breathe - Lee Hi
6. Simple - Seventeen (Woozi)
7. Smile Flower - Seventeen
8. Love Letter - Seventeen
9. Healing - Seventeen
10. Second Life - Seventeen
11. Lie Again - Seventeen
12. Mom - BTS (Jin) cover
13. How can I Love the Heartbreak - Akdong Musician
14. Miracle - Seventeen (Woozi)
15. Sweetest Thing - Seventeen
16. Winter Bear - BTS (V)
17. Kind of Love - Seventeen (Seungkwan)
18. Sweet Night - BTS (V)
19. Scenery - BTS (V)
20. Zero O'Clock - BTS (Vocal Line)
21. Moon - BTS (Jin)
22. Shadow - BTS (Suga)
23. Something Different - Why Don't We
24. I will - Chelsy [Ao Haru Ride]
25. (It's Gonna Be) Okay - The Piano Guys


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Meet Seventeen K-Pop Idols in my dream

Woozi being Soft and Sweet?!

A Day After the Concert:
[17 November 2019]
          After attend Seventeen's Kpop concert for the first time (16 November 2019), I couldn't move on. That night I dream about me, being Joshua's best friend and he introduce me to his group member. I felt awkward for the first time, but Hoshi always break the silence and have fun with everyone. That time my eyes caught Woozi staring straight deeply to my eyes, feels like piercing into my soul, I could feel butterfly in my stomach. Then we broke our eye contact as Seungkwan ask me if I have ever attend their concert, well I said I never attend one and no bongs with me. Joshua suddenly handed me a VIP ticket of their concert, which shocked me and I felt like crying and they gave me hugs until I faced Woozi. He handed me a new carat bong and said that I could have it to myself and he blushed. Other member see what happens and bullied Woozi for being soft with me and not them, I could only laughed, which made Woozi smile even brighter.

            After attending their concert, we were spending time with one another. Woozi, who always spend his time alone, joined us which made other members surprised by his action. It seems funny when I had to see him do aegyo beside me and I love how he produce music. He see that I am interested in music production and brought me to his room and show me all his works about producing and his lyrics for their upcoming songs. We get along pretty well and quick since our interest are mostly similar. Hoshi would always disturbed both of our times together, which made Woozi a little annoyed. It seems cute when he blame Hoshi about disturbing our times together, which made Hoshi asked him a question "Are you trying to hit on her? If yes, I'm gonna tell Josh Hyung". This made Woozi face blushed really hard, I couldn't even imagine it so cute and wanted to pinch his chubby cheeks.


After 5 Months:
[8 April 2020]
            I was dead tired about my job, facing the customs because of the Corona Virus thing, I also had to go out and check on the warehouse and the status about the cargo which has not being confirmed. It stressed me out, so I decide to listen to Seventeen songs which made me relax and fell asleep.

            I couldn't believe that I dreamt of meeting them again as a lucky fan. This time I dreamt attending their fanmeet, but the system seems having a trouble, so the security let me pass as a lucky one. I could go backstage and meet them at their dressing room. I was too excited that tears were coming out and I seem like a fool asking for a permission to hug my 2 bias, Woozi and Hoshi. Hoshi was so excited and squeezed me tightly, I couldn't stop hugging him until I faced Woozi. His face seems like not in a mood, but after a second, his face turned soft and looked like a pampered kid hugging his mom, which was so cute that I didn't want to let go. After the hugs, Woozi held my hand all the time when I was talking to other members. I even told Wonwoo and Mingyu about my friend, who is crazy over them, and made them blush really hard. Until the time is up, I had to separate with them but Woozi wouldn't want to let go my hand, which was still interwined with his. Other members laughed really hard of how he acted when I was about to leave. I told Woozi that I promised I will attend every events that they will prepare in the future. He brightens up and we made a pinky promise.


Don't ask why Woozi and I being sweet, because it was just a dream
I don't understand how can he be so cute, cool and savage at the same time
My bias is indeed Woozi, second is Hoshi. Other members are my bias wreckers
Woozi and my age gap is just 6 months and 1 day, my zodiac is the same as Hoshi
Guess when I am born and which liner?

My favoutrite songs: Love Letter, What's Good, Good to Me, Crazy in Love, Swimming Fool, Chocolate, 20, Healing, Campfire, Simple, Adore U, Pretty U, Mansae, Aju Nice, Pinwheel, Smile Flower, Holiday, Snapshoot, Lie Again, Second Life, Lucky, Miracle, Sweetest Thing

Living a life?

             Everyone has their own dreams to achieve, but not all of them succeed. Imagine themselves as superhero to save the people they love or saving the world from crime. The world is so big and I am just a human being, living on Earth like a particle of dust. Living in a world that is full of lies everywhere. Not everyone had a perfect life to live, even though they thought it was the perfect moment for them. Nobody knows it will go wrong someday. 'Life is never flat' the sentence I always hear when people try to comfort me. It has a lot of ups and downs that noone could ever imagine, it may be the best or the worst. 

              Imagine life as a game in which you are juggling 5 balls in the air. You name them: work, family, health, friends and spirit, and you are keeping all of them in the air. You will soon understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back, but the other 4 balls (family, health, friends and spirits) are made of glass. If you drop one of these, they will be irrevocably scuffed, marked, nicked, damaged or even shattered. They will never be the same. You must understand that and strive for balance in your life. Don't undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others. It is because we are different that each of us is special. Don't set your goals by what other people deem important. Only you know what is best for you. Don't take for granted the things closest to your heart. Cling to them as you would, for your life, without them life is meaningless. Don't let life slip through your fingers by living in the past or future. By living your life one day at a time, you live all the days of your life. 

              However mean your life is, just go with the flow. Do not call it as hardship, cause it is not as bad as you are. It looks poorest when you are richest. The person who always seek for your mistakes will find their own faults in paradise. Just like splashes of water created, it will affect your surroundings, cause it may comes from anger or jealousy, and we are responsible for that. We cannot create peace if we are riddled with inner conflict, hatred, doubt or anger. Love your life..... Perhaps you may have some pleasant, thrilling and glorious time in your life. Always remember, there's only one person in this world like you, and I like the way you are. Do not trouble yourself too much, cause what matter is you change yourself into a better person. Radiate the feelings and thoughts that we hold inside, find your inner peace. Whatever inside you will spill out into the world someday, creating the beauty with all other circles of life.

Living in the World Peacefully

I spend too many hours indoors. I wonder if so often when we misplace our peace, if the answer is simply to spend more time outside. I say I wonder, but I already know what kind of person I become when I spend extended minutes under the sky. There I see the rest of the beauty, and it’s not that I forget the chaos of the day. It’s not that the challenges disappear or the discouragement dissipates.

It is hard to comprehend how much hurt is happening in this world and how many hearts are broken. In these trying times, we all suffer, but we do have options to accomplish healing without resorting to hate or revenge. 

We can let what we’ve seen happen in this world especially this week make us feel angry, hateful, or resentful. Or, we can turn these tragedies into opportunities to create more peace and healing in this world.

If we let our hurt and pain turn into hate, revenge, and resentment, we don’t put ourselves in a position of strength to help anyone.  We need to overcome our own anguish so that we can be a light in a time of darkness.

It isn’t easy, and people are at a loss for a solution, but we can all move together towards a world of unity and peace. 

The media is so focused on hate and negativity which can create so much anger. I just see lives that were never given the chance they deserved to prove their innocence. I see people who are willing to protect and serve this nation despite the doubt and cynicism that the uniform is scarred by. I want to see a world that is more peaceful and loving. 

So I took the time to reflect and block out anything that made me feel more anger and hate. Instead, I spent more time in prayer and solitude with the hope that I could in some way find the words to express how I felt so I could reach other people who are hurting and searching for faith.

How does it feel to sit on the roof upside-down and look to the ground? How does it feel if we can touch the sky? Peacefully living in this world is hard, full of injustice, pain and sorrow. Who is standing by my side? Who is supporting me when I am down? Where is everyone when I need them? Everything just feel so empty, as if we are living like a robot, listening to other people order.

Why can't we be free to share peace and love? Why people have to settle everything with fights, law, or war? We should be scared and repent on what we are doing, because we can always keep on return to this world if we do more sins.

Global Army Song 2019

See You There
By: Gracie Ranan
https://bts-radio-uk.blogspot.com/2019/07/see-you-there-gracie-ranan-interview.html

[LYRICS}

They said I can't climb the highest mountain
They said I don't have a dream
They said I can't change the world
But then you came to me
You made me begin

I'll get rid off the lies in my head
And I'm taking the very first step
And I'll walk through the dark
And take a deep breath
Cause I know I'll see you there
I will see you there

You told me that I'm never alone
And to have a dream of my own
You're the voice that's calling me from the dark
Together we will see the sun
Another chapter has just begun

I'll get rid off the lies in my head
And I'm taking the very first step
And I'll walk through the dark
And take a deep breath
Cause I know I'll see you there
I'm not going anywhere
I swear

I'll hold on
When the road gets tough
And we will be enough
And if you count to 3
You're gonna be okay
We're gonna be okay

I know you are no real estate [Agent]
But it feels like you are my homies [Mansion]
Usually no one ever hits up my phone
But I can call on our galaxy [Samsung]

Used to sing by myself
Cause no one else was on my wavelength
But since you let me in that door
I'm no longer a whalien

Every time I fall
You my parachute
You my magic shop
You my chicken soup

Scared of being me
Now I speak my truth
We all shooting stars
Now we bulletproof
And it all thanks to you

And I hope this life do treat you well
May we smile even though it's unfair
And we'll walk through that door
Your hand in my hand
Cause I know I'll see you there
You were meant to speak yourself

And I'll walk through that door
But I won't be afraid
Cause I know I'll see you there

I'll speak, I'll smile
I'll dream, I'll shine
It's all because of you

I'll speak, I'll smile
I'll dream, I'll fly
I live so I love

I'll speak, I'll smile
I'll dream, I'll shine
I'll speak, I'll smile
I'll dream, I'll fly
I live so I love

Memories of You and Me

Your smile, my hug
Are ingredients to happiness
Wonderful just like how coffee matches its companion
You lean on my shoulder
The warmest heart
You said that I’m your safe harbour

Your mischief, my teasing
Slightly upturned corners of our mouths
Your mischievous smile makes my heartbeat race
You asked me who I will rank first in my heart
Without hesitation, I point to you

Love is a relay, the passing on of happiness
Sweetness anytime and anywhere
One-to-one, just me and you, you and me
While chasing you, not forgetting to cheer you on
The reward at the end is a happy ending

The magnetic attraction of love lets two hearts be stuck together
Even if a thousand metres apart, love does not leave
Meticulously giving a romantic portrayal of this romance movie
Singing the theme song of happiness hand in hand

Love is a relay, the chemistry between us
I’ll carefully put it at the bottom of my heart
I will treasure loving you
For you, I chase away dark clouds
For you, I shield you from wind and rain
You must believe that I’m your only one

Love is a relay, the passing on of happiness
Maintaining the sweetness it should have
One-to-one, just me and you, you and me
While chasing you, not forgetting to cheer you on
It’s a happy ending, let me run to you

The happy ending is me and you

Global Army Song 2018

We'll be Fine

By：Gracie Ranan

[LYRICS]

It's been a long day

And you've done your part

Exhale all the problems

It’s okay to fall short sometimes

While the pain chose to stay, have hope

Better days are coming soon, you know

They know

When we say ‘we believe’

I know we’re stronger when together

When we say ‘we will fight’

I know this bond will last forever

And no such arguments or fights will ever tear us apart

We made a promise, we made a vow to reach the sky

And if I have you and them by my side

I’ll be fine

I'll be fine

When people doubt us, yet we’ve tried our best

The sacrifice we make, good days will come

I hope it’s not too late

Believe in me who’ll always trust in you

I know the world is harsh, bit I do love you

And they do too

When we say ‘we believe

I know we’re stronger when together

When we say ‘we will fight’

I know this bond will last forever

And no such arguments or fights will ever tear us apart

We made a promise, we made a vow to reach the sky

And if I have you and them by my side

I’ll be fine

I’ll be fine

There’ll be more desert to face

But the sea that chose to stay is you

When we say ‘we believe’

We’re happy as long as we stay together

When we say ‘we will fight’

We see the highs and lows together

And so such hate or harm and bullets will take us down

We made this promise, we made this vow to stand by you

I’ll be forever loving you

And so such hate or harm and bullets will take us down

We made this promise, we made this vow to stand by you

With every heartbeat and breath with you

We’ll be fine…